Jedi Mind Tricks//Black Winter Day

Yeah, I’ve been alive longer then I expected to be And took care of everything that’s expected of me…
I handle shit differently ‘cause I’m grown now And the truth is that I’d rather be alone now I’d rather not have to deal with the day And I hate when people ask me how I’m feelin’ today…
I wish you all the best, I wish you all the shine. I wish I didn’t wanna offer my thoughts with a nine
I’m thoughtful and kind, but I’m evil alas
But everything I love has turned to a tedious task I feel that life a waiting game for people to pass But nobody ever want you to see through the mask

Now it’s eleven on the dot and I want my seventh shot
Some ice cold Jägermeister would just hit the spot
Threw it down and said “yo bartender do a round”
I think that was eight, I’m drunk so I’m losing count
Vision kinda spinnin’ but still I want another
Now the bitch looks like Vida and I wanna’ fuck her
I called her over but god-damn my mouth was slurrin’
So I was like fuck it, “just bring me out some Bourbon”
Took my ninth and looked at life in another light
I went from happy too “Imma’ start a fuckin’ fight!”
Thoughts were runnin’ like “I hate myself nowadays”
I’m really broke and my seeds a thousand miles away
Baby mama always gotta bring that same drama
“Yo bartender bring me back a shot of straight Vodka”
That’s number ten but at this point does it matter?
I’m half a father, half a sucker, half a fuckin’ rapper
Half-assed and half the time I’m just a drunken bastard
Who smokes so many cigarettes I got a touch of asthma
Ordered my eleventh E&J. and with the quickness
Took it and told the bitch “I’ll be back in twenty minutes”
I went outside, threw some punches and hit the wall
Knuckles bleedin’, screaming till I trip and fall
I ain’t got shit at all, and I don’t even love myself
Fuck it, I ain’t going back in, here’s number twelve